Letter in a Bottle.
Journal Entry: Tue Jan 22, 2008, 12:15 PM
Looks like I can just waltz on out about now. What good am I if all I'm viewed as is tiny and insignificant?
I guess all my efforts must have been a waste of time.
I wanted to say "Im sorry" for giving it up. I even felt guilty for it. The circumstances for my losing it were unexpected and unfortunate. Something had gone wrong and it had to be removed for my health. But, I am still Chaos in its whole, regardless, which gave me hope. But now, I'm not so sure I should say anything, or feel anything. Nothing except this little letter, which may or may not reach its source. A tiny letter in a webspace bottle. I am only directing this to one person, and should he find it, then he'll know everything about that arguement. Yes, I saw it. And what happened was completely out of line. Our friend is not corrupt in any way. He was your friend, wasnt he? Shouldnt it have been obvious that something was amiss on all sides? Things should not have gone the way they did, and now it has come to this...
But, that's not why I wrote this message.
In fact, I just wanted to ask a couple questions.
Did you even care? Did you even think for one moment that I was worth anything besides a tiny amount of power in which to channel? What I gave was everything and more. What I tried for was to protect, serve, and change our lives for the better. The mistake that I made that long while ago was one in need of retribution, but I believe that the punishment delayed itself. Tiny, small, and, obviously, insignificant. The sarcasm was obvious. The ridicule was there. Was it so hard to just look, and maybe see with your own eyes who it was you held in your hand?
Hello, its your Son.
I thought that maybe you would understand, that you would at least acknowledge the fact that I'm still here, and I still love you. And I do. I'm not heartless like everyone has claimed me to be recently. I care...
And yet... you asked why it was "so utterly important"? Like that? I'm still here. I was hurt by what you said. It was like being punished before I could even open my mouth. Before I was even brave enough to speak up, my hope was dashed like that.
I'm obviously unimportant, Dad, so take it back. I can survive without it.
- Mood:
Resentful - Listening to: Apocalyptica - Hope
- Reading: Nothing
- Watching: Everything Disappear
- Playing: Nothing
- Eating: I'd rather not.
- Drinking: If I could, I would...
Devious Comments
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I Choose You.......
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Rub a dub-dub, three men in a tub...
What exactly are they DOING in there...?!
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Give me a good reason and i just might do you a favor! hehehe...no I won't!
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My ice cream is too cold.
Looks like I better put it in the microwave! 8D
~come an see my scrapbook~
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I dunno what my signature should be...
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98% of teenagers have tried smoking pot. If you think this stat is crap, put this in your signature.
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Silence is all I have to say, and everything I can't hear
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"Blah, Strong Bad! BLAH! I'm a crappy Stuntman!"
~Homestar, sbemail #194 "specially marked". [link]
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"And once again Mr Jones, we find that there is nothing you can possess which I cannot take away."
Nothing they can say could hold me here.
Why don't you join the poetry contest from [link] ?
It's free and every nitwit such as myself who enters gets a small gift
but someone like you might win one of their $10 000 or $100 000 prizes.
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Why, in this empty room,
Is my body shaking?
Tell me...
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Thanks for the fav' !
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Leb' Diie Sekunde !
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Forbidden to remember
Terrified to forget.
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When I'm connected to my inner heart, I wish could believe it
That tenderness isn't useless
Though I can't see it now, I won't lose it
-L'Arc en Ciel 'SHINE'-
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I piss people off... Does it make me a evil bitch??
"I try not to let things I can't change bother me." Ronon Dex
"Suicide Hotline...please hold."
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I just wanna colour outside the lines
I've been reprimanded about a thousand times
I'm a, rulebreaker
You know that I'm a, rulebreaker
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"I'm blond and an Art Major a dangerous combination..."
"Never be normal! Always be different!"
This is my best friend ever!!!!! [link]
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